There is No Heartbeat

There is No Heartbeat

"There is no heartbeat." A statement that shattered my life almost 8 years ago. I heard this on a television show I was watching a few months ago and it stopped me in my tracks. Blindsided by that statement that kept me frozen on the couch for a few minutes.

"There is no heartbeat." One short sentence that brought so many emotions rushing back, taking me back to a time that was so painfully burned into my memory.

"There is no heartbeat." A statement that changed my life forever. For the first several months, I was crushed. It was isolating and I felt like a failure. BUT, that little heartbeat that once was gave me so much enlightenment. Avery's heartbeat was beautiful to hear as all my babies' heartbeats once did. The heartbeat during a pregnancy is a sound of joy, happiness and hope! Although my sweet Avery's heart stopped too soon, she had a purpose and made me a better person.

Our sweet Avery’s existence strengthened my faith. She made me more grateful. I see her in my boys and can't wait til we are all together one day in Heaven. As we approach Avery's 8th birthday this year, I thank God every day for blessing me with her little brothers and trusting me with their precious lives. What a gift a baby is! And I am proudly honored to be a mother of an angel who has helped me become the woman and mother I am today.